these boots are made for walking... lalala

Argh! Just check the latest cleo n stunned by these smashing new booties. Cantiknya boots ni. Cantik sgt. Kalo ada duit ni mmg dah bli. Totally awesome. Funky, edgy but still feminine. Serious cute sgt.

Aku try bukak cleo.com tok amek gamba boots tu,but then cam hampa ckit ar. Coz web die not fully utilize and macam ntah pape pun de gak. Quite disappointed. Coz cleo is my favorite mag. Aku dulu de gak kumpul remaja,but then it gets boring. So boring that I yawned at every page. Haha. Neway,lets not get out of pint here.

Boots yang aku tgk semua cute n best. As I said before, funky, edgy but still feminine. And satu lagi yang aku minat. Sneaker heels. Look,even Leighton Meester wears it!

ske ske ske ske ske ske ske ske ske!!
probs is,harga die sgt mahal!!!
nk soh yus beli. *evil laugh*
these boots are made for walking... lalala~~~

bakal berehat

sekarang musim demam. bukan demam AF,coz we're so over it. skunk musim demam exam. untuk kawan-kawan,

selamat berjuang.

aku jaga bakal berehat berblog ni. nak focus. well,subjek aku bukanlah sesenang ABC eventho aku tau cam ramai pandang enteng. aiceh~ anyway,aku dah apply tok tukar coz. aku dah wat sume yang aku mampu untuk mencapai impian aku. aku tau,bukan senang nak berubah. bukan senang nak meninggalkan apa yang dah terjalin. sabar ye? kita bukan pergi jauh. satu uitm gak. ahaks. aku just nak share gamba2 yg fun tok aku amek n fun untuk aku tgk. hakhak

tip n aton bujet kembaq

gamba-gamba ini diambil ketika test c++. kami terlalu tak tau nk wat apa sampai terhasil la karya-karya agung seperti ini. tolong jangan tiru. more at here.

there's no other new updates from me. saya xde la pergi paris ke mana kan. so tak syok la nak cite pape. haha. ok. gud luck (again) untuk semua. i know,luck is really needed at times like this. especially when we were day-dreaming most of the time in classes,thinking

'what the fcuk??'.

have the courage to say no

Have the courage to say no is the most important thing. Having your friends stayed beside you is great, but the important thing is you. I know that you wanted to be good guy here. You wanted to help people in need but still, you need to look out for yourself too. Tolongla jangan terlampau obsess dengan kawan anda. Bukan maksudnya kamu tak boleh bertindak baik langsung,bukan bermaksud kamu jangan menolong langsung,tapi berpada-pada. I’ve got too many great friends who are willing to help me in times. Seriously, too many. Most of them willing to sacrifice their times, their money at some point to help me. I do appreciate their help so much, and I’ll do everything in return.

But limitation is important. Takyah la sampai bangun kol 4 pagi dan mengambil teksi semata-mata untuk menemani kawan anda yang ketakutan di stesen bus. Tu bukan membantu. Tu merosakkan diri. Lagi-lagi kalo dah ke berapa kali nye kamu berbuat begitu. Saya faham,kamu tu nak menolong,kamu kasihan, tapi kamu tak kasihan kan diri kamu? Kamu tu nak exam. Dahla jauh kolej kamu dgn hentian bus. tak kisah la kalo kawan kamu tu bayar balik duit kamu. tenaga kamu,masa kamu,bazirkan cam2 je. yang paling xley blah,ada ke die suruh kamu ponteng kelas untuk teman die?? WTF?? Kawan kamu pun satu. Kenapa begitu selfish? Kalo kamu dah tahu kamu takut di stesen bus sorang2 waktu tengah malam,yang begitu bahlul nak ambik bus waktu malam buat pe? Pe ke la bongok sangat diri kawan kamu tu? Dah la menyusahkan orang lain. Tak reti nak berdikari lak tu. Kalo dah gatal nak amek bus waktu malam,pandai jugak la balik sendiri. Ngada-ngada sangat!

Wahai kawan saya,tolong la jangan bagi muka sangat. Tolongla. Kamu tu kena tindas tau x? kamu tu kena guna pakai tau x? kalo semata2 alasan nak tolong kawan,baik jangan kawan je dengan die. Argh,aku plak yang emo. Aku seyez xske la kalo kawan aku kena men camni. Kalo pakcik teksi ni cas lebey pun aku dah panas,ni plak rumate ko yang OVER dan mengada2 sangat2. Weyh,suck gile. Aku xsangka de lagi kawan camni wujud. Siyez ko busuk gile perangai. Janganla wahai kawan saya,jangan tertipu dengan perangai busuk macam tu. Cakap tak nak ley x?

Ramai sangat kawan aku yang kena tindas camni. Ada yang kawan dah lama pun buat taik gak. Yang bitching kat belakang pun ada. Yang nak rampas balak pun ada. Weyh,panas siot. Aku cakap kat diorg,kadang,susah kalo kite nak nasihat minah2 camni. Tp ko la kena ubah. Ko jangan ikut cakap die. As I said before, have the courage to say no. jangan la rasa bersalah lak. Dah kalo permintaan macam siot,watpe nk ikut. Kalo dah emergency,tak pe la. Well,ko pun boleh beza kan antara emergency dengan plain gediks. Saja nak menyusahkan. Panas panas.

dalam dunia ni,tak semua yang kita boleh percaya. tak semua yang baik. tak semua yang macam kita. kena pandai la untuk kenal,mana intan,mana permata. kalo tak tahu,analisis. macam step dalam c++ tu. kalo dapat soalan,way analysis dulu. mana untuk output,mana untuk input dari user. macam biasa. janganla asyik nak output je. mintak input xmo. (sorry la. exam c++ dah dekat. kena aplikasi dalam kehidupan). jangan mudah percaya kan orang. nanti kamu ditindas. kamu yang kena bertindak. kamu yang kena berubah. bukan mereka. jadi,apa lagi. bertindak la. jangan jadi macam lembu yang dicucuk hidung,pergi ke mana tuanmu bawa. ok?

waiting

i'm waiting patiently for your email.
just a stupid,simple email.
it felt like thousand words in it.
so hard to reach me.
am i that far?
my patient is running out.
please dont test me.
coz i got soo many test coming.


and i'm still waiting.

fesbuk

i dun get it.
wat so great bout fesbuk?
a lot of my pren like it.
y?
i dun like it.
boring.
make me wan to yawn.
jas same as mespes and plenter.
u olredi noe ur pren.
u c them everiday.
why need all tis?
u can mesej them like owez.
y? y?
boling la kena jaga ini akoun.
bukak2,orang xkenal pun add juga.
last2,pren list manyak penuh olang i xkenal.
macam fester n mespes juga.
apa beza?
ada kuiz ka?

draft

aku draft kan "i feel vulnerable". somehow,on the second thought,it was kindda personal for me to say it out loud about how i feel. aku tak meminta simpati. aku hanya ingin meluahkan. dan,mungkin sedikit harapan yang dia akan membaca,walau aku tahu dia takkan membacanya. tapi,tu la. ever since aku start blogging,aku rasa yang aku banyak meluahkan sesuatu yang aku rasa tak patut. maybe i felt that i should expressed it anyway.

im much more of an introvert than extrovert. although in a test i took tells me differently. aku senang memberikan pendapat aku,memberikan pandangan aku tentang sesuatu perkara, tp mostly bila berbual,aku lebih kepada mendengar dari bercerita. aku mempunyai ramai kawan. tp aku tak tau siapa yang patut aku berkongsi. siapa yang patut aku bebankan dengan masalah aku. so,in the end,aku diam. mungkin aku juga lebih suka untuk membisu. mungkin aku lebih suka menanggung sendiri. mungkin.

i feel vulnerable..

One of the things that keep me up waking in a middle of the night is thinking,what am i supposed to do? i couldnt stop thinking bout it. a lot has happened lately,and one thing for sure,i know you are not here.

For many reasons in the world,i think you are the only person i could trust. You are the only person i could ever be honest with. I can share my lil secrets with you,i can share my toughts with you. And when you were first gone,i think i could handle it. i think i was strong enough to survive. I got my friends, i got your family behind my back,its just that i didnt sure i got my family behind mine. now you are gone,things were different. I have a hard time sleeping. I could find myself in a middle of the nights, just thinking about what to do, and not knowing who to share with is sure a pain in the ass. But i sure,i could handle it. right? I supposed to be strong.

And so many nights i find myself wanted to cry. i tried to stop it,but somehow it couldnt stop flowing. I found myself trying to keep it from falling apart,but it was so hard. I dont know what to do. Tears is the only way i could think of. My body felt numb. Am i weak?

Life is sure hard when you dont know what coming for you. And this morning,some one who i’ve known for many years now,telling me that i was hard to figure out,so as to say. Am i that mysterious for you? or the fact that i dont know how to spill my true feeling for my own friend makes them feels that way. I know that its not a big deal,but somehow it got me thinking about how i’ve acted lately. I was worse than ever. I blank at my classes,i didnt do my homework,i couldnt figure out what the hell that teachers was talking, and i really feel like im an idiot. I’m a mess. Or let me correct it. i’m a mess without you.

This few weeks,i’ve been thinking a lot. Not a bout how i should stop you from going away,but about my own future. My academic assistant told me that life about putting love in what you do,not doing something you love. How true could it be? Putting love in something i do is something i really should consider because right now,i dont know what the hell am i doing. I suck at class. I know that you think it isnt necessarily true but its what i think. I tried to find love so that i could put it somewhere it belong but guess what? It rans away when you were gone.

You know something? I always dreams that when i was a little,i wanted to do something that i love. Something that i have no regret whatsoever. I wanted to do something that is fun for me,even though it doesnt necessarily fun for others to see. I wanted to be involve in what i do,not just doing for the sake of getting an A. I imagine of having a smile while i was doing my work. Although it was tough,but hey,at least i enjoyed every single moment of it.

I am quite a confident girl. Not a lady yet i think. But mostly,a teen. And i would like to see my dreams come true. Nobody doesnt,does they? But somehow,having my confidence ripped off me kindda make me feel weak. And i hate being weak. I hate it so much that i pretend to be strong. But what i really need is you. i just need someone to hear my thoughts,someone i could share my feelings with. I really think that person is you.

gosh,so much happened i couldnt even spill it out. Things might be gets a lil awkward when you get back,but for now,please remember me in every steps of the way. Cause i do.

twitter

asal xramai main twitter huh?