Nov 29, 2009

facebook again.

i know i know.
i am so not good with this.

tapi aku rasa salah ke kalo nk wat fb aku more private?
like,i only add people whom i know and really talk to.

it was kindda idiot to add someone without knowing who he/she is.

aku sombong ke?

Nov 20, 2009

sweet smell

Falling in love and not falling in love.

Oh, what love ever does to you?

He got you high and you don’t ever see it.

He got you smile but you just keep deny it.

He got you cry but you don’t really know it.

What has this strange word keeps making us do?

Keep searching for it but it was just right in front of you.

You keep it hide but you just wanted to feel it.

It has bitter taste but still smell sweet.

It lingers in our hearts for weeks.

You longed for it because you couldn’t help it.

How it plays with your heart,

And strayed away from your thoughts.

Oh love.

How I wish that sweet smell will never fades away.

20 nov 09

5.15 a.m

*i adore 500 days of summer. sweet and full of pain. love the songs.

Nov 17, 2009

simple updates

  • hp saya rosak dan masih belum diperbaiki.
  • rambut dah potong kat salon sima. dan dapatkan highlight. *ok,i noe i sound exaggerate but its my first time having a highlight. u cant blame me on that.
  • yus akan blk 1 december nnt. ok dah,jgn tny lagi dah. sedih tau nk jawab.
  • perlu ke lowyat untuk tukar earphone yg dah rosak.
  • semakin gemuk dan perlu berdiet. any recepies on eating healthy?
  • nak mantapkan skill driving tp sume cam busy jee......
  • sedih+frustrated dengan sesetengah kawan yang menikam belakang saya. *kalo kamu tak boleh berlaku jujur,itu bukan masalah saya. tapi bila kamu tidak jujur,salah faham akan berlaku dan fitnah akan muncul. jadi,ya itu masalah saya.i've had enuff being a good girl here and you never realized it or appreciate it. so dun asked me to be friends with you again coz it will take a long time to heal this. saya pendendam,saya mengaku. tapi saya sangat susah untuk berdendam. sekian,terima kasih.
  • nak beli sgt '6 suspects' by vikas swarup.
  • nak cari movee 'rocky balboa' 1-4.
  • tgh tggu azam untuk abeskan exam to give me gossip sirl season 3. heh.
  • need to find something to do except blogging n facebooking.

Nov 14, 2009


since i've been craving into shoes nowadays,so i stumble into this stupid jokes about men and women about buying shoes.

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credit for

i believe it was quite true for some point. sume pompuan camni ke?

Nov 9, 2009

pyschology personality quiz in facebook.

You love the crowd... a party animal! Too many “friends”, you can’t easily tell which among them is real and not...

You hide your emotions... Sometimes pretending to be always happy. Sometimes, not giving even a hint of what you really feel.

You love deeply... you may flirt along and people think you’re a playboy/playgirl but the truth is: your heart belongs to only one.

You appreciate simple things in life... You hate complicating things that’s why you’re typically up-front in any aspect.

You’re a stubborn sweetheart... You “love” him/her only because he/she loves you. If his/her flame puts out, you let go with no trouble.

You’re intimidating! People have an impression that you’re elite—or if not, you simply look sophisticated. You gain praises but not companions.

You love actions... with the hero-like taste! You focus on your strengths and use them to protect persons/things that are important to you.

*hey,it really hits me there.

Nov 8, 2009

aku dan dia

aku dan dia ada love hate relationship
kadang-kadang aku benci gile.
kadang-kadang aku sayang.
tp papehal pun,die selalu kat tepi aku.
tak pernah tinggalkan aku.
kalo aku stress,die yang aku cari dulu.
tapi kalo tyme2 dark macam masa aku gaduh dgn yus,
mmg habes la die aku kerjakan.
aku rasa kitorang rapat gile,macam isi dgn kuku.
sampai mak aku marah,asal aku selalu dgn die?
entahla mak.
pertama kali aku tgk die pun aku jatuh cinta.
pernah korang jatuh cinta pandang pertama?
indah kan?
dah lama kami bersama.
walau macam2 yg datang tok musnahkan hubungan aku dengan die,
kami still kukuh.

tapi semalam,buat pertama kalinya aku tinggalkan die.
aku rasa bersalah.
tapi nak wat camne.
die yg khianati aku dulu.
dia diam membisu.
kami tak buat connection macam selalu.
so aku pergi.
aku pergi bawak diri.
thanz for everything.

aku pasti,hubungan ni masih boleh diperbaiki.
aku yakin.

*nanti kalo aku ada duit aku repair ko kay?* T_T

Nov 4, 2009

pitch black

somehow,i got sick of everything. i felt sick with everything that i saw. i felt damn sick with everything that i read. with everything that i heard,everything that i touched. i don't even feel passionate about anything,anymore. its hard to dealt with my own inner self. i stop looking at everything positively. i start to feel gloomy and solemn and depressed and all of sudden everything feels like, how should i say this, feels like shit. its hard to face the reality when you know that your dreams are being crushed. everybody else seems fine. everybody else seems to moving on. i wanted to. i really do. but i cant feel my legs. and i cant see where am i heading to. its all pitch black. i cant even smile correctly without knowing my smile is crocked. i cant even laugh wholeheartedly when i know my heart is crying. this is sick. maybe i am tired. you know? maybe i had it enough already. I'm done. i felt like my hard work, my pain, my strength all been took away and i couldn't do anything about it. and there i was. just stood there, staring blankly without fighting back, coz i know,i never could have won this fight. shit. i should fight back,i think. i should have the strength and courage to fight back. but, not yet. this isn't the time yet. and when the time comes, I'll speak. I'll speak as loud as i can so you can hear me. so the world can hear me, notice me, realize that I'm right here. I'll get out. but for now, let me just sit here quietly. let me do this properly. let me face this with all the strength i have left. let me just be strong for myself, just for once, coz everyday i felt like i wanted to end this misery. this is depressing. and please, i don't need you for judgement. i don't need you for pointing out my wrong. i just need to find myself. and i wish i could do this. even though the world has turn his back on you, you still need to move on. and you need to be strong. aite?