Status : Completed

Examination Result : TM (Complete). 

Alhamdulillah. 

Gula-gula

Qila lihat sekeliling. Meriah. Penuh dengan orang. Masing-masing enak menjamu selera. 

Memang Kafe Bites menjadi tumpuan. Bila tengahari tiba, manusia penuh mengerumuni. Pelbagai pilihan, enak pula. 

Qila tersenyum. Dulu bukan begini. Pengorbanan ke Prof Stephen berhasil. 2 bungkusan yang prof bagi berkesan. Arahannya sangat jelas. Setiap masakan, titiskan 2 titik ubat pertama. Sel otak pelanggan akan jadi sangat aktif, merangsang deria rasa ke tahap maksima. Buat semua naik gila, teringat-ingat masakan Qila. Namun side-effect bahaya. Perlu antidote segera. 

Penyelesaian Qila senang sahaja. 

“Bukan semua yang aku suka. Yang menghina, tak diberi gula-gula penawar. Biar sakit jiwa”.

Qila memang pendendam orangnya.

One day

One day, you'll meet someone.

Someone who saw you in every way possible.
Your bad, your good.
How you eat, how you chew.
How you smile, how fake is your smile.
How ugly your face is when you cry.
How lazy you are. How diligent you are.

How you continue being obsessed with weird stuffs,
like Arashi, and comic books, and sushi.
How you can be so hyper at times,
and it makes you dance weirdly.
How cranky you can be when you're tired,
How you can be so absorbed in one thing,
like reading books or comics,
and how he understands that and gave you your time.
How he knows what makes you happy,
by buying you foods,
and listen to your rambling
even though it makes no sense.

How perfectly he can understand that while skyping,
you were not focused on him
but reading manga online instead.
Despite all that, he always laugh and asked you to continue reading.
And how those moments were so vividly clear in your mind
make you miss him so much.

And after everything that happened, he will still love you.

Can't believe it's already 6 years of happiness.
And everyday made me love you more and more.

Happy 6th anniversary dear.
Be safe out there. 

Sumbat

Dia terikat. Mulut disumbat. Panik.

Hazlan diam. Telinganya peka mendengar bunyi tapak kaki. Mungkin mereka masih di luar. Dia kena senyap. Kalau mereka perasan, habis musnah rancangan.

Dia tahu, ini akan terjadi. Masa mereka mengikat tangan Hazlan, dia bijak untuk menggenggam tangan dan meninggalkan sedikit ruang, supaya mudah untuk meloloskan jarinya. Bila Hazlan pasti mereka dah pergi, dia mulakan rancangannya.

“Sial la. Sakit tangan aku.” Keluh Hazlan dalam hati.

Sikit demi sedikit jarinya mula bebas. Bila tangan dah lepas, mulut bukan lagi satu masalah.

Hazlan lega. Pintu stor dibuka. Dia mengeluh. Perkara buli seperti ini akan terjadi lagi. Sampai bila-bila. 

2013

I hope this year will end well..

Big Bad Wolf is back bitches

Big Bad Wolf is back!

 

Aku tak percaya cepat gila masa berlalu and now, here he comes! Okey, first for introduction, what is Big Bad Wolf? Bid Bad Wolf is super awesome events where they sell books for 80-90% off their real prices. The real owner of BBW also owns BookXcess. 

BookXcess has the same concept however, it is not mass produced as BBW. The prices are lower than average bookstores (still cheap, you could get books for rm20+ when all the other bookstores sell those at rm30++). I went there before and I must say I’m quite satisfied. Not good at explaining so check The Malaysian Reader’s blog and see for yourself. 

Okey. Back to BBW. 

Since I went there before, I feel obligated to give a few tips for those who wanted to go. There’s a few thing you could do before going to BBW. As one would say, a battle will be lost without a proper preparation. 

Before going :

1. You have to know that there’s thousands (in fact, BBW announce it will be MILLIONS) of books there. Nak tak nak mesti rambang mata. With all those cheap prices, who could resist? So kena prepare dulu buku apa nak dengan surf website BBW : http://bigbadwolfbooks.com/ . The website gives nothing but the title of the name and the writer. So kalau nak tengok buku ni best ke tidak, do like what I did. 

i.                  Surf for any books that might catch your eyes.

The Boy Who Could See Demon? Interesting….

ii.                   Got your title? Then surf into GoodReads.com and search for your book.

iii.                  Interested? Put it in a list so that you won’t forget.

Easy peasy. But you have to remember, there are thousands of books that are not listed in here. So be prepared to spend some more money than you budget. Who knows what you will find there.

2. Wear your battle outfit. No high heels or anything that made you uncomfortable. Remember, you are going to a battle. Long hours of hunting and possibility of pushing through a lot of people just browse some books.

3. Bring big case (or roller bag, anything you fancy). Because after paying they’ll give you this cheap (easily rip) plastic bag and you’ll need something tougher than that to hold you books. Well if you are going by car then it’s no problem. But for me who gonna use the public transportation, I might wanna be more careful about this. Taknak la nanti buku rosak pulak kan

During the battle:

1. While you are browsing for books, please please please be nice to other people. You have to remember that other people wanted the books in a nice condition too. Too many people browse around for books, and then THEY GOT GREEDY. They take every book possible and then when they decided not to buy them, they just put it somewhere else. Susah sangat ke nak bagi kat staff yang ada. KAN KE SUSAH UNTUK ORANG LAIN AMEK BUKU TERSEBUT? KENAPA SELFISH SANGAT?!

And the other thing is, bila browse buku, tak reti nak letak buku tu balik elok-elok. I mean come on. That’s the reason why I didn’t want to go on weekends. I’m expecting to see people who touch every book and then placed it wrongly. Abes terlipat-lipat buku tu. I probably end up as BBW staffs, handling the books and placing them back.

2. Last year, when I went to BBW for the first time, I was so overwhelmed for the massive cheap books and I grab every book possible. (I’m GUILTY AS CHARGED). So eventually your books won’t be enough. As a solution,  the smart wolf provides a counter and boxes, for us to drop our books there and continue hunting other books.

 Picture courtesy from here

And lastly, happy hunting! I wish you the best hunting possible and may the rest of your life (until the next BBW) be filled with books and excitement! :D

Without You

I want you to be brave.
to have faith in yourself.I want you to be strong and believe in your decisions.
never regret, never look back.
there's nothing frighten me more than the thought of someday,
when you look back in this moment, and you start to think,
"how I regret the decision I made that day".

your decision may hurt someone, and you have to know that it is okay.
It's okey to be selfish sometimes.
It's okay.
It's okay even if it's me you've hurt.

I want you to live your life proudly, even though it not as big as anyone else,
even though it is just a small achievement,
I want you to know that I'm so proud of you.

I want you to always live in your dream.
To be running and climbing one step after another,
with nothing stopping you,
I want you to live your life to the fullest.
sky is the limit.
to climb every mountain,to finish every task.
even though it hurts, I don't want you to quit.

Things happened. they just do.
and sometimes we are weak.

I want you to know that I can be your strength.
even if we are apart,
I can be there when you need me.
I'll be your back bone.
even if your heart can't take it anymore, I will.
I want you to know that you are never alone.
you have me.
and I have you.

and I'll be just right here.
waiting.

They all think I have it all.
I've nothing without you.
All my dreams and all the lights mean
Nothing without you.

Without You - Lana Del Rey

Sang Bohemian

Aku baca buku ni dah lama. Dari bulan 7. dah aku masih terkesan bila sewaktu membalut buku ni, dan menyelak helaian demi helaian, melompat satu bab ke bab yang lain. Buku ini diolah dengan hampir sempurna. Lompatan cerita ke cerita yang lain amat menarik. Bagi aku tiada cacat cela. Kisah Tirani, perwatakan beliau, menarik. Seperti sang bohemian. Kau tahu apa itu Bohemian?

Bohemianism is the practice of an unconventional lifestyle, often in the company of like-minded people, with few permanent ties, involving musical, artistic, or literary pursuits. In this context, Bohemians may be wanderers, adventurers, or vagabonds.

 Unconventional lifestyle. Lari dari norma kehidupan. Kau bagitahu aku, siapa yang sanggup mengutip tin kosong di tepi dewan makan, di tepi Seksyen 2, untuk menyara hidup? Siapa yang tak kesah asalkan rezeki itu halal? Dan fikiran Tirani... Mengagumkan. Aku suka lelaki sepertinya. Scruffy. Kau tahu bagaimana lelaki scruffy?

The twist in this story was just amazing. It still amazes me. Aku terbuai dengan keindahan kata-kata penulis, memahami pandangan Tirani dan setiap tingkah laku. Penulis bijak menyusun setiap langkah,setiap peristiwa supaya ianya kelihatan tersusun,membongkar setiap peristiwa yang membawa ke arah peristiwan yang lain. Setiap ayat yang diolah menarik, penuh puitis sehingga membawa pembaca masuk ke dalam alam khayalan. Bait-bait yang sangat menarik. Aku tertanya-tanya kenapa buku sebegini tak dapat perhatian yang sepatutnya. Adakah sebab dia bukan dari Fixi so it wasn't cool enough? It was a really good book. Kenapa buku ini langsung tidak dikomersialkan dengan lebih pesat? Kalaulah aku tak jumpa. Kalaulah tangan memilih buku lain. Kalaulah terjadi sesuatu sehingga terpaksa dibatalkan pembelian. Tentulah aku akan melepas membaca sebuah karya menarik. Such a shame. I know this is just my opinion but my taste never fails me. Please, go and buy this book. Understands it. Feel the emotion. Read.