obsession & life

Everybody that knows me knew that I'm super crazy and obsessed with manga. If you didn't know what is manga, then maybe you're reading the wrong blog. Go find it out in wikipedia. Well recently I'm in a holiday, still am but somehow not feeling it, so I wipe off some dust and clean my book shelf. I was so proud of my collections that I just had to show it (and bragging about it a little) to you guys. hey I almost perfected my Hajime Kindaichi collections. That is something that is worth celebrating for right? Right? *okey forget it*

So my primary bookshelf is this black one. My mother used to hates it when I bought comic books, and she will throw it away once she saw it. So I secretly bought it and put it in boxes. But boxes will never be enough. My mom knew bout this so she decided to buy me this super awesome bookshelf. Yeah my mom is awesome that way.

And so i stuffed the first shelf with novels, FIXI books and Death Note.

The second and third with shoujo from Gempakstarz. 

I've always bought them in highschool and when I'm at Changlun 

but now i'm just too shy to buy this.

The second bookshelf is being hung high at my bedroom wall. My brother initially wanted to throw away these used cabinet but my dad insisted it still can be used as my bookshelf.

 

my mother throw away some on my Conan collections. 

I was so devastated I never bought new ones. 

Plus I've started to collect One Piece, Bakuman and 

Kimi No Todoke so I don't mind much.

 

THIS. THIS. THIS. can I even say anything to an awesome collection like this? From the top, Sekolah Detective Q, then Penyiasat Remaja Hajime Kindaichi, then Kes Hajime Kindaichi, Cabaran Hajime Kindaichi, and the latest was single case file of Hajime Kindaichi. He's so popular and awesome, the author just had to publish his case more and more. No complaints there.

And after all of them being nicely put I have no more space left. Plus I just bought Gensomaden Saiyuki at The Big Bad Wolf recently I didn't know where to put my next manga. I can't wait to have my own house and build small library so that I can put all of my books, novels and mangas there. Plus i love to buy magazines too so I honestly need a bigger shelf than this. What i show you does not include my collections of magazines and novels. So sister, get married fast so I can have my room all by myself! haha okey kejam. (^^,)

17 days too late

hey mister.

I know I'm 17 days too late, but
Happy Belated Birthday to you.
Hope you can get the love you've always dream of.
I'm sorry I didn't have the courage to say this to you. 









and lately, my mp3 keeps on repeating "Never Bloom Again by The Perishers". Weird. Made me think about you more and more. I'm sorry. Again.

If i love to drink coffee, does that make me an adrenaline junkie?

I just had to go crazy last Friday. I spend so much on books at The Wolf Sale. That officially made me broke.  But still, I was satisfied. At least I was spending it on something that I love. Almost 90% of my money went to food. It was delicious, the experience was amazing but after done eating, that was it. The end. No more continuation after. Not much memory, unless if you took a picture of it of course. 

My priority list of spending money is like this :

Top priority and lust : Comic. Do I even have to explain this?

Second : Food. All kinds of food. Cakes, biscuits, rice. Everything. I love them all. I’ve spend hundreds on a single tab. Never regret it once.

Third : magazines. Almost 90% of the mags in my home is bought by me.

Forth : Shoes.

oh yes this is what i bought at The Big Bad Wolf Book Sale.

And this is what i bought from Fixi Online Store, except for JERAT.

 

Haish entah bila nak habis baca semua ni. I got tons of work to do including final year project proposal, with surveying and please don't forget other subjects need my attention too. I'm already in the verge of death. Kill me now. 

p/s : the title has nothing to do with my post here. Saja.

p/p/s : walaupun beli banyak gila buku tapi book wish list kat tepi blog ni masih tidak dapat dipenuhi. ada sesiapa yang baik hati mahu hadiahkan?

Photobook

summary of what happened to me during holiday

belum

blog ini masih belum mati.
cuma tiada isi.

urbanscapes 2011

tidak menarik. panas.
fake.
too much publicity.
nothing interesting.
nothing much to share.



2010 was far better.

dilema

what would you do if you suspect someone you know is cheating on his/her partner?

contoh kau kenal pasangan ni dah lama. suka la dengan diorang dan harap diorang kekal sampai bila-bila. tapi perlakuan salah seorang dari mereka macam pelik. Pelik as in boleh menimbulkan syak wasangka. bukan sekali dua si partner yg curang ni macam nak kantoi tapi tak kantoi la. Ada pernah tak rasa macam tu. Macam nak kantoi tapi tak kantoi. Contoh macam kau nampak stranger ni berkeliaran menjeling-jeling tepi rumah kau tapi bila dia sedar kau ada dia stop. Macam mencuri tapi takde bukti. Macam kantoi tapi tak kantoi. Macam tu la.

Apa yang kau rasa kau patut lakukan?

1. Bagitau partner dia

tapi kalau bagitau rosaklah satu hubungan tu. lagipun kau bukan sure sangat yang dia curang/menipu. suspect je. cuma takde bukti. kang kalau bagitau rasa bersalah pulak kalau tak de apa-apa kan. Lagipun meningkatkan tahap ketidak-percayaan masing-masing.

2. sound or confront si curang

or suspek curang. tanya dia depan-depan. sebab partner dia adalah lebih kurang orang yang kau sayang jugakla so tak mahulah jadi apa-apa kan. Kau respect dia sebab tu kau taknak dia buat sesuatu yang bakal disesali nanti. tapi kang kena marah or kena maki hamun pulak.

3. siasat lebih / dapatkan bukti

kalau macam ni tak kira macam stalker or invasion of privacy ke wey? Niat dah baik tapi niat tak halalkan cara kan? Tapi kita nak membendung sesuatu yang lebih buruk berlaku. Kalau positive boleh dibendung. kalau dah terlambat langsung nanti kira macam terhantuk baru nak terngadah.

4. biarkan kantoi sendiri dan buat tutup mata

boleh tapi perit sikit. kita pun sedih sebab orang yang kita sayangi dan sanjungi kan. Okey kalau kantoi kompom curang kena tutup mata jugak ke? Biarkan kantoi sendiri? Tapi kan nanti lagi pedih.

Seriously aku dalam dilema. Ini serius. Kalau boleh jawab secara serius juga. Please jangan tanya siapa. Please help.

Kapal Terbang Kertas #2

For first edition of Kapal Terbang Kertas, click here.

I was one of those who you called a late bloomers. Kalau ada sesiapa yang kenal aku masa sekolah dulu, mereka akan faham betapa kebudak-budakkan nya aku, betapa tidak matang nya fikiran aku dan betapa main-main nya aku zaman sekolah. No we are not talking about middle school, but we’re talking about high school here. Love comes second. Apa yang penting adalah aku, kawan-kawan, comic (of course!) dan barulah percintaan. Jadi bila Hafiz muncul, perasaan aku bukanlah seperti ada bunga api dalam hati atau bagaikan berada di kayangan. Tidak. Aku macam biasa,cuma aku rasakan Hafiz adalah istimewa. Aku hanya rasa gembira bila ada seseorang untuk berbual dan berbalas mesej, berkongsi pendapat dan cerita tentang family aku dan sebagainya. Kau faham kan ketika kita kecil, semua masalah yang remeh nampak gila hebat. Masalah family yang simple je, takde pun porak peranda tapi kita rasakan itulah pengakhiran dunia. When we looked back at our past, terasa bodohnya zaman dulu-dulu kan?

So anyway the important date arrived and I was excited to met him. Aku minta tolong kawan kawan aku which consist of Fatin, Adda, Zulaikha, Awyn,Athirah and others untuk teman aku jumpa Hafiz. Aku takut dan risau dan gelabah, you name it. Apa yang patut aku cakap bila kami berjumpa? Apa yang patut aku buat kalau dia tak hensem? (pardon me for being such a vain) Apa yang patut aku respond kalau things became awkward? Dammit Azyan keep yourself together!

The plan is to meet at McDonalds in front of the cinema. Hafiz akan berada di sana. Btw,family aku bukanlah jenis yang senang lepaskan aku keluar, even sampai sekarang pun. So this so-called-reunion is one-time-opportunity that I will not miss. Cakap dengan mak nak keluar jumpa kawan lama. Technically it was true so I wasn’t lying to my mom, but I’m going to meet someone else too! (^^,)

Hafiz oh Hafiz. After meeting with my friends, we headed to the cinema, nervously and currently at that time Fatin is having some sort of stomach ache. Tahu tak dekat depan wayang mid tu kan ada bulatan yang besar, dan depan nya ada Mcdonalds? Kami port dekat tiang bulat tu je, menunggu Hafiz. Poor Fatin.

"Hafiz, kau kat mana ni? Aku dah sampai Mcdonalds ni."

"Sama la. Kau pakai baju apa?"

*dup* *dap* *dup* *dap* "Aku..aku.. ala hari tu kau kata kau boleh je cari aku.."

"Okey. Tunggu aku tau."

Aku letak telefon. Mana satu Hafiz ni? Seriously boleh ke dia cari aku? Dia sembunyi kat wayang ke?

"Yan,mana satu Hafiz ni? Takde pun."

"Ntahla wey."

"Ke yang tu?" Adda tunjuk kat belakang aku.

Aku terus pandang belakang, dan aku nampak seorang lelaki berdiri belakang patung Ronald Mcdonalds sambil tersenyum. Hafiz ke ni?

"Hai Yan." Hafiz tersenyum. Aku tergamam,tak mampu nak cakap apa. First sebab akhirnya aku dapat jumpa dengan orang yang aku borak selama ni. Second sebab Hafiz agak comel. He was wearing a green shirt underneath a pattern jacket. He looked so cool, so... so... damn i lost my words there.

"Ha..hai Hafiz. Em kenal kan ini Adda, Athirah, Fatin, Zulaikha, Awyn."

"Hai girls. Boleh culik Yan sekejap tak?" okey now I'm blushing.

"Sila la. Tapi jaga Yan baik-baik okey. Kalau tak nanti siap." Adda reply.

"Janji. (^^)/"

Adda asked me to be careful, and to be honest I was scared too. but somehow I trust him. We decided to change our place and leave Mid. And so both of us went to Times Square, to kill some time and get to know each other more. Pada masa tu TS masih lagi baru dibuka, dan aku masih tidak berpeluang untuk masuk dalam Kosmos World.

"Hafiz, jom masuk Kosmos World."

"Ala nak masuk sana buat pe?"

"Jom la Hafiz aku tak pernah masuk sini lagi. Kan ada roller coaster semua. Syok tu."

"Buat apa naik roller coaster tu Yan? Eh kau tak takut ke masa kau naik tu, tengah elok-elok pusing tiba-tiba kau jatuh? Tinggi wey kau jangan main-main. Ni jatuh ni kompom kau jalan terus tak balik dah."

"Mende kau merepek ni Fiz? Jom la.. Please wahai Hafiz yang kacak lagi hebat. Jom la"

"...."

"Please Hafiz..."

"Ok..tapi dengan satu syarat....."

"Ape?"

"Kalau kau naik roller coaster tu, kau naik sorang-sorang."

"Eh mana boleh kau kena la teman aku"

"............." Muka Hafiz dah start merah.

"Kau............" Aku cuba cari ayat yang sesuai tapi tak keluar.

"Kau gayat ye Hafiz?"

Aku dah mula tergelak kecil. Hafiz nampak sangat tak selesa.

"Eh mana ada! Aku memang tak suka naik mende macam ni. Aku mana gayat."

Oh Hafiz you're so cute!

Sambil senyum aku cakap, " Okey, kita takyah naik roller coaster la. Tapi yang lain kau teman aku boleh?"

"Okey"

So our first joy-ride is DNA Mixer. Yes ladies and gentleman that is a bad choice for the first timer. Now I know how horrible it was. Aku tak faham celah mana yang seronoknya. I swear to god it is my first and the last ride of that thing, EVER.

Turun je dari DNA Mixer, kami dah tak stabil. Aku masih lagi boleh gelak-gelak tepi Hafiz, tapi Hafiz.. oh poor him. Hafiz nampak macam nak muntah sangat-sangat. He ran as fast as he could to the gents, and i could hear he's tearing his inside out.

"Hafiz are you okey?"

Aku hanya mampu jerit dari luar toilet. I felt like going inside but that's just me talking crazy. All I can do for him is wait. Keluar je Hafiz dari toilet, he said

"Promise me something Yan," with his pale face,

"Yes?"

"Jangan suruh aku naik mende macam tu lagi."

I burst out a big laugh. "Okey I promise."

And so we went for something less terrifying and my dream of riding roller-coaster shattered. But nevertheless, the silly things we did back then. It made me laugh whenever I remember about it. It was nothing much, really but everything is fun when you're with someone you like. Kami main kereta langgar, twice dan kami main kejar-kejar. It was really really fun.

Bila hari dah petang, I wanted to go home.

"Azyan, biar aku teman kau balik."

bersambung..